Wednesday of Holy Week: “Spy Wednesday”
We forget, at our peril, that the sin of Judas was not his betrayal of Christ, (all of the Apostles bar John betrayed Him, and even he stayed at a distance until the Cross.), but that he was so enfolded in his own ego that he could not believe that Christ would forgive him and so despaired.
We will often betray; the choice is whether we return to Christ like Peter, or remain wrapped up in guilt and despair like Judas. Repentence opens us to new beginning and takes into the future only the wisdom of our experience. Guilt chains to the past and drowns one in the isolated self. Let us turn to the Lord knowing that no matter how we may have betrayed Him in the past, His love is always sure.